The Circle of Mentoring

October 5th, 2010

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Last week I had a full circle moment. A rare set of circumstances lined up in such a way that I knew God was teaching me something specific. It was too perfect to be a coincidence.

Several years ago I was being mentored by someone who invested in me and my writing career in a way that still amazes me when I think about it.

This woman, a seasoned veteran when it came to writing and ministry, was a consistent voice of truth in my life during a season in my life where I was being bombarded with success and it was easy to lose my way. She reminded me to seek the Lord for myself instead of allowing others to tell me what He wanted me to do.

I treasured my relationship with her. She always popped into my life with a timely word at the right time. But time and distance eventually had their way in our relationship and a woman who had once been an active force in my life slowly became a faint whisper and a pleasant memory.

For years I was sad about it. I missed my friend and her influence in my life. But, for one reason or another, I never called or emailed. Instead I let the drifting grow worse.

Last week, God brought my former mentor back into my life. For over two hours I sat on the phone and listened as she poured wisdom into my life in abundance. She quoted verses and offered insight from her own experiences that answered questions I’d been wrestling with. Without being bossy, she mapped out a course for me and pointed me in the right direction and then happily sent me on my way.

Our conversation was, as she put it, like drinking from a deep well. I hung up the phone refreshed and grateful. It was as if there had never been a season of separation.

A few days later, I received a Facebook message from a girl I mentored six or seven years ago. We met weekly for an entire year. I walked her through her first heartbreak, helped her pick a college, taught her how to have a quiet time, saw her off to her senior prom and attended her graduation party.

During a pivotal season in her life I invested in her on a consistent basis. Then, one day, she graduated and moved away. Her life went on and so did mine. Time created space and eventually we lost touch. It had been years since we’d spoken. But I still thought of her often.

She emailed me to tell me she’s mentoring high school girls now. Recently she found herself wondering if what she’s doing matters. Did these girls notice her investment? Was it changing them or shaping them in some way.

I’ll let you read part of what she wrote:

“I laugh about how I don’t necessarily get much feedback from the girls and I’m always wondering if they actually are benefiting from the relationship. Of course I am biased when I look back at myself because at first glance I think I must have always told you how much I appreciated having you in my life…but then I remember my personality then and how I probably didn’t say much at all. Therefore, I wanted to write you simply to say thank you.”

As I read her words I cried. In two days time God brought two very different women back into my life. One mentored me. I mentored the other. My life was testifying to the fruit God was bearing in the first woman’s life. The second girl’s life was evidence of some of the fruit God was bearing in mine.

It left me thinking about multiplication of ministry. Someone invested in me and I turned around and invested in someone else and now she is investing her own group of girls. It had come full circle.

Life isn’t always about who we keep in touch with. Sometimes it’s about who we touch along the way.

Whose life are you investing in? Who is investing in you? How has a mentoring relationship impacted you in some way?

I would love to hear your story.

One Choice Leads to Another

September 30th, 2010

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Earlier this week, my husband and I ate at our favorite burger joint. The Counter isn’t your typical order off a menu place. When you walk in they hand you a checklist and a pencil. You literally customize every aspect of your burger.

We ate with some friends and none of us had identical burgers. I opted for beef with Brie cheese, sprouts, tomatoes, mixed greens and grilled onions on a regular bun with ranch dressing on the side. My husband picked beef with pineapple, dried cranberries and teriyaki. I didn’t inspect anybody else’s burger that closely.

The thing I love about The Counter is that they carry so many of my favorite toppings. But, I noticed as I was happily checking things off and working my way down the list, sometimes choosing one of my favorites automatically means eliminating another. There wasn’t room for everything on my burger. And, let’s face it, some of my favorites just wouldn’t taste good together.

I could have opted for carne asada but I really wanted Brie cheese. The thought of the two together makes me gag. By opting for Brie I also eliminated Gouda.

Life is often the same way. By choosing one thing (like a specific college or boyfriend) you automatically eliminate another. Sometimes, a single choice doesn’t automatically eliminate all other options but eventually you find yourself forced to pick between things you love.

Lately, I noticed I don’t have as much time as I once did. My life was hurtling forward at a breakneck speed and I had to make some tough choices. I couldn’t keep living at the pace I was moving at. It would have been reckless and I would have run out of energy.

So, I had to evaluate a few things and make more deliberate choices. When I realized some of my important real life relationships weren’t getting the attention they deserve, I decided to step back from some of my online interactions and let the conversations on Facebook and Twitter continue without me.

I also had to examine various writing projects, ministry opportunities and speaking invitations and prayerfully whittle the list down to the things that I felt would be the best use of my time in this season.

Notice, I said in this season. Every season of life is different. Just because something or someone played a prominent role in my life a year ago doesn’t mean that the commitment should go on as is unexamined now.

I try to make a regular habit of sitting down with the Lord several times a year, writing all of my commitments out and asking Him which things still fit in the puzzle of my life.

Sometimes letting go and making changes isn’t easy. As I let some things go, and moved others around, there were some things I needed to grieve. This is the first time in five years that I am not teaching writing. There is something just a little bit sad about that.

But, this is also the first time in six years that I am teaching a weekly Bible study again. I love every minute of it, although it is a bit challenging too. For starters, this is my first time teaching women and not teens. And I’m also teaching something someone else picked out instead of using homework I wrote myself.  

Trade offs. Life is full of them.

How do you decide what stays and what goes when your schedule gets too crowded? Do you purposefully decide what each season change brings or takes with it, or do you allow it to just happen naturally? When you pray about changes how do you listen for the voice of God?

Let’s dialogue about this. I’m really eager to hear your thoughts.

Fruit and Results Are Not The Same Thing

September 28th, 2010

girlwith BibleI tend to be an overachiever.

A perfectionist.

These aren’t things I’m proud of. But they are, nonetheless, true. Because of this I tend to be a results oriented person. That means I’m constantly looking for hard and fast evidence that the things I’m doing are a success.

Last night I taught on John 15:5-8 at women’s Bible study at my church. It’s a passage that used to frustrate me to no end simply because I read it wrong.

I used to assume the fruit Jesus promised to produce in our lives if we abide in Him would be equivalent to seeing stellar results in all areas of my life—especially in the areas where I was trying to serve Him. An example of my misguided thinking would be the assumption that abiding in Christ as I wrote a book would mean that the book would have super sales numbers. To me, that always seemed like a logical application of the text. I have since learned

Fruit and results are not the same thing.

In fact, not only are fruit and results entirely different things, they also come from completely different places.

I produce results. In fact, most of the time I wear myself out trying to make things happen or make myself successful.

But in John 15 Jesus says something startling. He says, “I am the vine.” His next sentence might as well be, “And you are not.”

Implicit in His introduction of who He is we also find a definition of who we are. We are just the branches.

Fruit—real lasting fruit—finds its source in the vine. The branch just gets the privilege of holding it. Without the vine the branch has nothing to hold.

What Jesus is saying here is, “I am the vine. I produce the fruit. If you want to hold some of my fruit, you hold onto Me.”

The concept of being a fruit bearer can be even more clearly defined when we realize God is simply calling each and every one of us to be a fruit holder.

This fruit Jesus speaks of isn’t measured by our results. But it is monitored by our reactions.

Jesus doesn’t come to me, or you or even your pastor on Sunday morning and ask what it is we can do for Him. He’s not after our results. He’s after us. His desire is to see us connect with Him so He can begin to dispense His reactions through us as we encounter the frustrations and heartbreaks of daily life.

So often we get caught up in measuring ourselves by our results—are we doing important things, are we becoming successful people, do a lot of people know who we are?

But the fruit Jesus wants to produce in us can be seen in our answers to questions like:

Am I more loving with that difficult person than I was a year ago?

Have I been patient in the midst of this uncertain circumstance?

Do I have joy as I face disappointment?

Can I experience peace even in the middle of a storm?   

If the answer is no, then it’s time we sit down with open Bibles and open hearts and ask God to produce these qualities in us. We can’t produce them in ourselves. So it’s time we stop trying.

Fruit and results are not the same thing.

All you have to do it abide.

Seasons of Change

September 16th, 2010

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Change is in the air. It comes with the territory of fall.

Last week I had my first Pumpkin Spice Latte of the season and donned a sweater for the first time in months. Usually I try to drag summer out as long as possible, but this year I decided to lean into the changing of seasons instead of fighting it. Instead of lamenting the end of summer I was able to enjoy the arrival of fall.

If only I could embrace the seasons of life so willingly.

Recently I spent some time with some of my best friends from college—one was getting married and the other announced she’s pregnant with her first child. We were nineteen years old and single when we met. Back then our lives consisted of textbooks, cafeteria meals and cheap ways to travel the world.

Nine years later everything is different—even our hairstyles. Spending time with these friends, witnessing their lives unfurling into a new season right before my eyes, reminded me that life is constantly in motion. Today is always in the process of giving way to tomorrow.

Change is inevitable. But that doesn’t mean change is bad. It just means it’s different.

A few days ago I found myself navigating through a change in my life that is still unfamiliar. I was relying on systems and routines that worked well for me in the past but don’t fit well in this new season of life. Something different was needed.

In that moment I desperately wanted to conquer the challenge before me and proclaim, “Take that, Change! See? I know what I’m doing here.”

But I couldn’t. So I let out a slow breath and as I did I could hear the still small voice of the Lord whisper: Will you trust Me here the way you trusted Me there? Your life may change but I will never change.  

Suddenly the burden I had been carrying lifted.

If God is with me in my season of new then I am going to be just fine. Even when I don’t know what I’m doing He always knows what He’s doing.

He is the one constant in a life full of change. For me, that’s enough.

What about you?

The Power of Words

September 14th, 2010

Words.

They can be used in many ways. You can use them to encourage other people. Or weave them together to form a prayer on behalf of someone who is hurting.

Words can be put on paper to write a love letter or a thank you note. And they can be put in a text message or an email just to let someone know you care.

Words have the power to change lives. I’m a writer. I should know these things.

But I still sat in awe when I heard the testimony of Leonardo when I was in Colombia last month.

It was the words of other people that led him to place his faith in Jesus Christ.

His story is best told first person (if you are reading this post via RSS click here to watch the video):

Words.

How are you using your words today?

It Matters More Than You Think

September 9th, 2010

Alejandra

They were just words. But they were all I had to give. So I wrote.

That’s all I did. I wrote one simple blog post and told the story of Alejandra, a six-year-old girl I met in Colombia when I traveled with Compassion International last month.

While on the trip I lamented that my voice wasn’t loud enough, my reach wasn’t long enough, to change the life of every child I encountered. I could have become deterred because I couldn’t help everyone. But I chose to write instead.

Hopefully, I reasoned, I can change the life of one child.

Alejandra had been on the waiting list for a sponsor for two years when I visited her home. Her family seemed devoid of hope. It was almost if they wondered if they would be passed over forever.

Today Alejandra has a sponsor because one woman read my blog and decided she was going to act. Last week she took the initiative and contacted Compassion and signed up to sponsor Alejandra.

She couldn’t sponsor every child on the waiting list, but she could sponsor one. While that decision doesn’t change the entire world it does change the life of Alejandra.

Do you see what happened here?

*One woman with nothing to give but words wrote a blog post.

*Another woman with enough money to sponsor one child responded.

*A little girl who had been passed over and rejected was chosen.

None of us has the power to change everything. But we can all do something.

Give what you have.

Do what you can.

Make a difference in the life of one child today.

It matters more than you think.

When Someone Else Gets What You Want

September 2nd, 2010

Sadness

Disappointment stinks. Rejection hurts. There’s something unsettling about knowing that somebody was chosen and it wasn’t you.

Yesterday I got an email from a friend who was just turned down by a publisher she dreamed of working with. It stung. As I read her email I felt her pain. She got an answer I heard last month: I’m sorry but we just signed a competing work. What you are writing is too close to something we already have.

Technically that’s code for: Someone else already wrote it—better and faster.

Instead of railing against the publisher in her email my friend asked me how I handle rejection and how I get rid of the nagging feeling of competition that comes when I find out somebody else got the contract for the book I wanted to write.

This is what I told her:

1) God is the ultimate authority. That means God is giving and withholding book contracts in ways that fit best with His overall plans. Even when I feel like an editor rejected me or another author stole my thunder, I have to remember God is ultimately in control and His ways aren’t my ways and His thoughts aren’t my thoughts (Is. 55:8). It’s not my place to question His authority and I know His plans for me are good (Jer. 29:11). In the grand scheme of things I’ve found there are opportunities I shouldn’t have ever had that were given to me and opportunities I thought I deserved that were withheld. Only God knows His reasoning behind those things. Trust Him even when you don’t understand.  

2) Second Corinthians 9:8 says that in all things and at all times God has supplied me with everything I need to fulfill the good works He has assigned to me. No book contract? Then I don’t need one at the moment to fulfill the good works assigned for me right now. So, I take my eyes off the situation and begin to look around for what God has currently equipped me to do. Many times it’s through doing other things that new book ideas come and I’m able to replace a dead proposal with a new one.

These answers might frustrate you the same way they sometimes irritate me. But that doesn’t make them any less true.

God has given you everything you need to do His will in this moment. If He’s withholding something—or someone—you think it vital to your wellbeing you are mistaken. He has His reasons. They are for your good. Someday He may tell you.

But then again, He might not.

So, decide to trust Him anyway. Look at what He has currently given you. Not at what He hasn’t. Thank Him for whatever it is, however small it may be. Then do something for Him with it.

Do what you can even if you can’t do what you dream of. That’s always a step in the right direction.

The Awkward Dance of Friendship

August 31st, 2010

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Sometimes life is like an awkward dance.

Right now I’m in a season of life that’s full of blossoming new friendships. In the last several months I’ve met some really great people. The kind of people I’ve been praying into my life for years.

While there’s something new and exciting about friendships in the beginning stages, there is also something unfamiliar. There’s a learning phase that comes with any new friendship.

Sometimes that learning is messy.   

The joke that goes over like a lead balloon because someone doesn’t get your humor

A misunderstanding that occurs over a short text message

An email that goes unanswered for days due to busyness and nothing more

Words that were meant to encourage that somehow sliced open an old wound instead

Occasionally I walk away from conversations and wonder: Did that person get a good glimpse of who I really am?

That’s a hard question to answer. We are quirky people. And every one of us comes with a personal history that helps us understand why we do and say the things we do.

Unfortunately (or is it fortunately?) newcomers don’t get the file full of our history. They can’t read our actions and hear our words in the way people who have lived some of that history with us can.

So we bumble and bump our way through new relationships hoping that grace will cover our flaws and at the end of the day our new friends will still pick us.

There is something risky about friendship. Putting yourself out there again and again can be tiresome. Inviting new people into the authentic places of your life isn’t natural. It takes work.

The longer you live the more work it takes because the sacred places of your heart have been trampled by people you once welcomed with the same gusto and hope you now extend to those who have just entered your life.

Forgiving people in your past becomes the key to unlocking new friendships in the present. Realizing that you are an imperfect person who also needs forgiveness is what gives you permission to forge ahead into the messiness of new relationships.

These friendships are difficult to navigate because they come with a high level of expectation. This time we’re hoping that maybe—just maybe—we can be perfect. We’re often hoping the same of another person too.

When we get bummed, and our toes get stepped on, or we unintentionally elbow somebody dancing along right next to us, the dream of being perfect comes crashing down around us.

The romance of new friendship is lost.

But the familiar rhythms of doing life with somebody who really knows you begin to set in. New friendship evolves into true friendship.

And suddenly the dance doesn’t seem so awkward after all.

Broken Dreams

August 26th, 2010

Woman Playing Guitar

What do you do with broken dreams?

I’ve often asked myself that question—especially when I’m picking up the shattered shards of a dream that has fallen apart.

A few weeks ago, I polled my Facebook audience and asked them what topics they would like to see me write about. One theme kept recurring. Although it was worded a little differently each time, it always sounded something like this:

How do I keep going when my dreams look impossible and it would be easier to give up?

Last week, when I was in Bogota, Colombia with Compassion International, I found myself seated at dinner next to a popular recording artist who was also on the trip. We started talking about our careers and how we got started and before I knew it I was completely wrapped up in her story.

Years ago, she had signed a deal with Sony. She was on her way to the top on fast-forward. But it wasn’t long before she hit a snag. A dishonest producer and a messy lawsuit resulted in her being dropped from her label. Nobody wanted to touch her after that.

So, she packed up her bags and moved home. For years she worked from 9 to 5 and played local shows on the weekends. Every morning she woke up to the reality that life was not what she thought it would be.

Eventually, living that way crushed her spirit. In tears she found herself crying out to God asking Him to take her passion for music away if He didn’t have plans to use it. That night, for the first time, she felt free.

Within days a new door opened. It wasn’t a record deal or a promise of fame. But it was a connection. That one connection led to another connection that led to another connection until this woman was given an opportunity to pursue music again and move back to Nashville.

But first she had a house to sell.

In a miraculous turn of events, the house was sold within two weeks and there were no remaining obstacles for her return to music. And she’s been steadily climbing the charts ever since.

“I’m older than I thought I’d be when all of this happened,” she said. “It looks different than I thought it would. But I can’t believe the places God has taken me with my music.”

She looked around the restaurant at the rest of our team and the Compassion staff.

“For instance, I never thought I’d be here.” She paused. “During that time I learned that a dream delayed is not a dream denied.”

There is often a misperception that leads people to believe that those of us who have recorded an album, written a book or performed in front of a large crowd don’t struggle. Many people believe that doing something once, twice (or even ten times) means you have arrived.

I know better. Those of us who make careers out of things that other people only dream about understand that sometimes it seems like the bad days outweigh the good. We’ve cried into our pillows on more nights than we care to remember. And we’ve had to sweep up the pieces of our shattered dreams and our broken hearts.

Pursuing your dreams is risky business. It never quite plays out the way it does in your head. There are ups and downs and moments of utter despair. Yet, somehow it’s the low moments that prepare you for the high ones. It’s the brokenness that lays the foundation for success. It’s not seeing your dream fully realized that drives you to keep trying until you do.

If there’s one thing I’ve come to understand about those who succeed when it comes to pursuing their dreams it is this:

Success doesn’t always come in direct proportion to your measure of talent. Sometimes, success comes to those with the fiercest determination to never give up.

So, put your actions behind your faith today and take one step—one single step—in the direction of your dreams.

Sometimes, that’s all it takes.

The Power to Dream

August 24th, 2010

Vision Board

His name was Larry Miller.

A retired college professor who quickly grew bored at home, Mr. Miller (as I knew him then) showed up to teach the second grade in slacks and a dress shirt every day. He was strict but kind and I will never forget him.

He was the first person who saw an inkling of writing talent in me. I don’t remember the specifics anymore. All I know is that I wrote a story that had something to do with my golden retriever and after reading it he called my mother.

“Shannon will grow up to become an author,” he said. “Her story is exceptional. Continue to encourage her in her writing.”

One man saw talent in an awkward eight-year-old girl and he encouraged it and went out of his way to enlist others to nurture and grow that talent too.

Long before I knew I wanted to be an author, I knew I was good at something. While I struggled with math or turned my nose up at science, there was one area I always excelled: writing.

Part of that, I’m sure, is due to gifting. But part of it can be credited to the fact that my teacher and my parents instilled confidence in me by recognizing my talent when they saw it. I’ve never been afraid to sit down to a blank sheet of paper and put words on the page. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always known I was good at it.

Last week when I was in Bogota, Colombia with Compassion International I met hundreds of kids who might not have a Larry Miller in their lives. Yet, for now, they still choose to dream.

One project I visited has a vision board on the wall in one of the hallways. On it, children cut out photos of their faces and pasted them on pictures of people living out their dream careers. There was a soccer player, an Olympic runner and even a rock star, among other things.

I stopped and studied the board and thought back to my second grade self. Vision is a powerful thing. Sometimes the only thing that stands between where we are and where we want to be is our inability to see ourselves there.

Each of us has the opportunity to be a Larry Miller in the life of someone else. You don’t have to be a teacher or a parent to instill the power to dream in another person. All you have to do is speak up.

Next time you notice raw talent in someone say it. Cast a vision before someone else and give her permission to dream. Instill in him the confidence he needs to be worthy of the task.

Decide today that you are going to make a difference.

While you’re at it, take a moment to reflect on the Larry Millers in your life. If you can find them, take the time to thank them.

But if, like me, your Larry Miller is someone you have no way of tracking down, honor that person and his or her role in your life by choosing to pay it forward. Never underestimate the power of words.

After all, my writing career started in the second grade.